The Daily: Golan’s Story
The New York Times 10/13/23 - Episode Page - 34m - PDF Transcript
From the New York Times, I'm Sabrina Tavernisi, and this is The Daily.
In the weeks since Israel suffered the deadliest day in its history, fresh accounts have emerged
in village after village of just how extreme and how widespread the violence actually was.
Today, the story of one man at the epicenter of that violence.
It's Friday, October 13th.
Hi, Gola. This is Sabrina Tavernisi from The Daily, from the New York Times Daily podcast.
Hi. Hi. Thank you for talking to us.
Yeah, of course. I'm on my way to the, I think it's the most quiet place I can find.
Great. Perfect. Golan, thank you so much. I know you must be absolutely exhausted.
Yeah, it's not easy.
Where are you right now?
We are, all the community were evacuated to an hotel in the Dead Sea. All the refugees
were evacuated to this place. Practically, I think 90% of the hotel is people from my kibbutz.
Golan, can you identify yourself for me, please? Tell me your name, your age, and where you live.
My name is Golan Abitbol. My age is 44. I live in Kibbutz Berry, and I was born in the Kibbutz.
The Kibbutz was established in 46. It's older than the state of Israel, and it's a quiet place
surrounded by nature. And I've been living there all my life with my family.
How many people in the Kibbutz?
We have like a thousand people in the Kibbutz. And we know each one of them by name because
we lived with them since I was born. And we know the name of the kids. We know everybody.
We all vouch for each other. We all take care of each other, and it's an amazing place to raise
your kids in. Do you have children? I have four kids. The older one is 15, his sister is 14,
and my twin girls are nine. Oh, twin girls. Yeah. And the kids are going freely. They don't have any
traffic inside the Kibbutz. Just go send the kids to the grandparents on the other side of the Kibbutz,
and they can go and you don't worry because nothing bad can happen.
Golan, I'm going to turn us now to the attack. But first, I want you to tell me about Friday.
How did you spend the day before the attack began? What was Friday like for you?
On Friday morning, in the morning, I got up in Reykjavik, Iceland. Oh my goodness.
I woke up in Reykjavik, Iceland, coming back from work and landed in Israel in about
six in the evening. And two hours later, I was at home. So this was my Friday,
and I saw my kids after a week. I didn't saw them. I spent time with them. We ate dinner together.
I saw my friends. We had some drinks and went to sleep like a normal Friday.
And then we woke up in about 6.20 in the morning to the sound of launching missiles.
It was a huge, huge launch. And I remember telling my wife what is going on, what is,
it's out of the blue. We are on the border of Gaza. We know what it's like to have
a missile attack. We are used to it. But this time, it was weird. It was suddenly,
and it was so intensive. And a few minutes later, we got a text message. We have an app
of the community. So we got a text that there is an invasion to the kibbutz,
and that we should lock ourselves in the shelter.
In the second I got this message, I went to my safe and took my gun. It's a pistol.
It's a small 9mm pistol and it's what I have for personal defense. So the first thing that felt
right to do for me is to take the gun out and lock my family in the shelter and then took
front position in the kitchen where I can have a better view of the neighborhood. And if someone
comes, I can respond and engage before they come to my house.
And next we started to shooting and we started to hear talks in Arabic.
And I was looking outside of the kitchen windows. And then I saw in the outside
perimeter of my neighborhood, I saw some terrorists standing outside with RPGs and heavy machine guns.
What did you think at that moment?
I knew it was bad. And then I saw them exiting an apartment of one of my friends.
I saw three guys with a fighting vest, with all the equipment, the gear and the helmets and
behind them three guys wearing civilian uniforms. And they were exiting my neighbor
apartment and it was horrible. I didn't know what to do. If he's alive, if he's dead,
I didn't know. I just saw them exiting the apartment.
And then there was units starting entering the neighborhood.
I saw them going near one of the families and started shouting,
like IDF, IDF, to make my neighbors think that they are from the IDF and they would give up and get out.
To make your neighbors think they were actually from the Israeli military, that's the IDF.
Yeah. And this group were dressed like an Israeli police officers. But something about the way they
were dressed, they were, I don't know how to describe it, a bit sloppy, you know, it's not,
it didn't felt right for me. And I text my friend, I don't think it's the IDF, don't open the door.
And then I heard Arabic from real, real close and I heard shooting from real close and I saw
from around the corner, tourists, I saw them going towards my balcony. I was standing at my post
of the kitchen and I just saw them coming from around the corner. I saw their face
and you could see murder in their eyes. I saw in their eyes, they are going to kill my family.
I need to shoot now or else it's going to be my family. It's now or never.
So I started shooting. I gave a burst of 506 bullets towards them and they shot back at my
home. They shot with automatic weapons. So then I'm shooting now from here and I'm going to a
different position to shoot from a different position because you don't fire twice from the
same position. So it will seems like there are more than one armed persons inside the house.
In Israel you join the army in the age of 18 and then you do a reserve duty until you are
about the age of 40. So you don't think you act like a warrior. You switched to a different mood
and it's like a muscle memory and it's like a slow motion movie.
Everything is slow. Everything is you see every move like flow
and then you hear them shooting back and then it's like a fast forward. You jump to the floor
and hide from the bullets.
So the time moves slowly and is suspended and then the time moves very quickly and speeds up.
It's like a weird dream or something.
Yeah like a weird dream.
Do you remember feeling fear?
Yeah of course. Of course. If you don't feel fear you're an idiot.
I felt fear and I felt fear from my family and my neighbors
but the fear is set aside and now it's time to engage the enemy.
So then after several bursts of fire toward the balcony and toward the rest of the house
they shot the house from many positions but my family were in the safe room and the safe room
can stand the heat of a missile so I wasn't worried about them. It's okay shoot the house
as much as you like. I'm on the floor. It's okay now and then I don't know why they left.
They decided to go. They went to a different house.
Then it got quiet. It got quiet. When I say quiet I mean I didn't see any any attackers
any terrorists outside. You could always always hear all the time the noise of the weapons shooting
outside. I can hear them throwing grenades but I didn't see for like an hour anyone else and then
I heard one of my neighbors texting in the group of the neighborhood that they're in his house
and they're trying to break into the safe room but he was holding on to the lever and so they
want to be able to open the door and then I guess they got tired of trying to and they just
set the house on fire and at first I didn't saw the fire then I heard a weird noise a weird
unfamiliar noise of cracking stuff. It seems like stuff is cracking cracking wood and
I looked outside and I saw all the top floor and fire and there they started texting that
the fire the smoke is getting inside inside the safe room and in the kibbutz text group
they said you need to put wet fabric on your mouse to shield you from the smoke but the house
is on fire and in certain time it was it wasn't safe for them anymore
and I told them I don't see anyone outside from my position so they jumped the ground level
the family with the two kids and ran straight to the neighbor's house and got inside to his safe
room together with him so the whole village was giving them instruction by text no no no the
whole village was giving each other instruction we were all under attack not only our neighborhood
there were some neighborhoods closer to the eastern side the side of Gaza
that were heavily attacked much heavier attacks than we got they got RPGs on their house on the safe
rooms and then in the text group a daughter of one of my best friends just sent a recording of her
she wasn't shouting she was whispering help us my mother and brother are dying my father is hurt
and is dying they're trying to enter the house and is on fire and she just kept on sending this
kind of message and and I know this girl and I know she's a good friend of my girls and she'd been
to our house several times and I used to work with her father and we are one family we're like
one family and I hear her recording just help us help us my father is dying my mother is already
dead my my older brother is lying dead and you feel helpless how old is she I think about 10 years old
she had to see her parents critically injured in front of her eyes and just she couldn't do anything
and I couldn't do anything and no one could do anything
later on I heard they managed to rescue both of them after shooting with a tank because there
were terrorists inside their home and they they survived the girl is okay and their father
is just got out of surgery he lost his leg but he's alive it's with us not like a lot of my friends
but the rest of her family was killed the rest of her family was killed
Golan when did you finally leave the house and when did the police finally respond
we heard the a big noise really weird one and I opened the window to get a different view and I
saw tanks tanks on the neighborhood it's not something it's not something you're supposed to see
so I knew things are going to change but I don't know how long it's gonna take
and then a unit of the army came and took us out it was nighttime but we could see a lot
to see the kibbutz burned to the ground it's it was horrible
we could see the house of my neighbors normally when you have a fire in the house the firefighters
are coming and they put out the fire but here I could see the fire dies out after burning everything
we were encircled by the soldiers who kept us safe and took us and they told us to close the eyes
of the young kids so they won't see the dead bodies of the terrorists lying outside so they
want to have this kind of memories in their mind they won't be scarred more than they are already
scarred and we went to the entrance of the kibbutz and they took us to the evacuation area
and we were just about to go on a truck an army truck to evacuate us and then from the bushes one
of the terrorists just started shooting at us with no cover and we had had to lie on my kids and
protect them my twins I had to shelter them with my body and shout to my kids I lost my
two grown-up kids I shouted them where are you where are you and it seems like forever but
they killed the terrorists very quickly the soldiers and no one was injured what time was
that approximately do you have any sense of that that was 10 o'clock at night 10 30
when we left the perimeter and it began in six in the morning that is so many hours
that's eternity it's I just can't describe the feeling it just felt like an eternity
and later on we were evacuated to the hotel in the Dead Sea where we are now
did anybody in your neighborhood die we don't know we don't know we have we get
drips by drips of names and today all the grown-ups in the community got inside the conference room
of the hotel and they were sitting there some members of the community with the list and they
were starting to read the names of the people we know are dead and each one of the members
got the page and start reading like 10 names and then collapse back and then the other one next to
him stand and start reading some more names and sit back and like I don't I don't know how many
I couldn't count and then I know each one of them I know each one of them and they read the names
and then they paused and said now we are gonna read the names of the people we don't know where
they are and it was just as long a good friend of mine she was they broke into her safe room
they pulled her out she and their kids and they told them to sit outside and they took
all the men and the boys from this group put them on a truck and just went together and they took
her son is the best friend of my son he's 16 years old and he's the most adorable gentle
kid and they just ripped him away from the hands of his mother
and my son is devastated and we are all devastated and we don't know what happened to
our family we don't know what happened to our friends we know that they kill one out of 10
of our community one out of 10 is dead but a lot more were taken they took babies they took kids
they took elderly people 18 years old woman she was like my grandmother
I I know her from the day I was born she was like my grandmother and we were laughing
together like two weeks ago and now they took her why what kind of they are not human beings
they are not human being a human being couldn't do this kind of they are vicious killers
they are not freedom fighters are not fighting to to liberate their country and our community
donated every year money to some people who used to work in the kibbutz
these are people from Gaza people from Gaza they were our friend and we donated money to them
the mother of a friend of mine was kidnapped she used to go once a week to one of the border
crossing with Gaza Strip and pick up with her car children and take them to get dialysis in Israeli
hospitals and now she's in Gaza we are liberal person we don't believe that all of the people
in Gaza are evil we don't believe we didn't believe I'm sorry we didn't believe I don't know
what I'm thinking now I don't know what to think now because we always thought that
peace and negotiation is the solution and I don't think anyone think now
we lost our faith we don't think there could be any kind of reason to talk with these animals
that destroyed my kibbutz kidnapped my family and we we want them back we can't be a community
without them they are part of us it's like a jigsaw puzzle you you can't take one piece and it will
be okay the ones that dead are gone okay but we need them we need the ones that survive get my
neighbors back I want them back they are my friends they are my family I want them back
and I go in the hotel and it's like a roller coaster of emotions because I hear someone just
died and it broke my heart and I collapsed and second later I see someone arriving that
I was sure that he was dead and I was afraid to ask and then another one is dead and another one
alive and it's a roller coaster of emotions
what are the children like in the hotel how are your nine-year-old daughters
my twins are playing they they talked to a psychiatrist and they didn't saw anything they
heard the noise of the shooting but they didn't saw the terrorists they didn't saw the bodies
my older kids saw the bodies they know about their friends that were kidnapped and their
knows about their friends that were slaughtered they know and there will never be kids again
their childhood is over and I know my son will never be the same again his childhood is over
his friends are dead or gone in Gaza and and now we need to start to rebuild our life from scratch
and from the moment we arrived here we rebuild infrastructure of the community
this person who in charge of finding people place to sleep in someone who is in charge of
activities for the kids and we have a person who is in charge of the elderly persons
and the nurse of the kibbutz is in charge of getting people their medicines that they left
back at home we rebuild our community here in the hotel so we could survive the day to come
because we don't know how long we are going to be here we don't know if we have a place to go back
to I don't know if my home is still standing I don't know and it's still under army quarantine
so we can't go back home we are here like refugees
so for now I'm still in the hotel and trying to hold on trying to
go on one day at a time
do you feel that it changed you
I'm sure it did I always say I was scratched already before with all the
military service I've been through but this is a different kind of scratch
so many friends of mine died so many when half of your friend died
there is no coming back I'm not going to be the same person as before
I'm trying to keep my humor as much as I can but none of us are going to be the same again
my kids are not going to be the same again I'm not going to be the same again
none of us Israel is not going to be the same again we went to a second holocaust
and unfortunately I did opportunity to be in the front line
we're not going to be the same
so
the death toll from the weekend's attack in Israel stands at 1200 people among them were at least
25 Americans in Gaza at least 1,537 people including 500 children have been killed in
airstrikes that Israel has conducted in retaliation for the attack
and late thursday night Israel's military told the united nations that the entire population
of northern Gaza about 1 million people should relocate to the southern half of the territory
in 24 hours the UN said it had strongly appealed for the order to be rescinded to avoid
making quote what is already a tragedy into a calamitous situation
we'll be right back
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Warning: this episode contains descriptions of death.
In the week since Israel suffered the deadliest day in its modern history, fresh accounts have emerged in village after village of just how extreme and widespread the violence was.
Today we hear the story of one man at the epicenter of that violence: Golan Abitbul, a resident of Kibbutz Be’eri, where more than 100 civilians were killed.
Guest: Golan Abitbul, a resident of Kibbutz Be’eri, in southern Israel.
Background reading:
Video: a son’s conversation with his mother as gunmen attacked her kibbutz.The long wait for help as massacres unfolded in Israel.Follow the latest updates on the Israel-Hamas war.
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